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Mon, Nov. 16th, 2009, 01:06 am

the past shallows me whole
i surrendered my heart
those tht felt the great wieght of the world
saw things clear
i lost control

comforted by the pain
of being ripped apart
she stole away to an alcove
bringer of escape
and longing that never let me go

fascination
all i can say
rung through the lens
asfixiaition
murder me tonight
for the sake of
lovee

Thu, Oct. 8th, 2009, 11:11 pm
disgusting

just bc i smile
doesnt mean im ok
when u hear me laugh
i feel my soul fade away

just bc u leave imprints on my heart
doesnt mean i care

lying without saying a word

Sat, Jun. 27th, 2009, 11:41 pm

the destroyer comes this way
step out of the forest's shame
ive deciphered the breaks in yr heart
ive cracked the code in yr brain
and still know nothing


take me,
this time too
drive these distorted viens from the sky in my direction
i begin again
strangled.
you want it all
i want to become invisible

esto es un reaccion
de la lluvia
de el estado de condenacion
ven tu, ahora que no tienes fuerza
sentao en una percha
enjaolado
esclavo de un futuro que no viene

lie to me
so tht i might breathe again
my body is shaking
anxiety is absorbing
and the filth is ugly
eats me from the inside

u,
me
r u listening?
wht is in a thought tht is never said
more thn words
more thn this

a storm eats the birds as they fly
soft beating hearts
now are ridiculed for pretending

its just a phase
like life is just...
a life
leave it me
to ruin a terrible read



i am completly empty
entirely gone

Sat, May. 2nd, 2009, 12:26 am

the things that divide me
wrap yr arms around me
i feel intoxicated by yr resignation
i come over and waver,
 feeling; not feeling
indifferent

yr granite
the ebb and flow
wins yr heart
carve out prose
i cant bear to speak any longer
tension and resistance
this dialog is murder

i stay here
wishing it would end
the fear of change, bruises
if i could read you tonight
breathe the pain away
tighten yr stomach
and as they say
the larva becomes a butterfly

i am truly floored
it was the torture that bore me
the process of nature
i was patient
colleted

Mon, Apr. 13th, 2009, 12:30 am

she wanted my heart
and i gave her my soul
she kissed me goodnight
i felt almost whole
she tore through me
and i felt more alone
i stared at the sky
the night was taking over
the moon was burning in my mind
and i felt the stream of melancholy
flushing me back, against time

the spell devoured
the touch tht insued
was like a knife

time displaced my mind
and there were fragments from my life
from the future
egging me to come
sickened and sweet
the torture of defeat
like my skin was burning
and the lost time
was screaming my name
i should have been
i might have seen
the once gone
came back again

Fri, Mar. 20th, 2009, 12:19 am

i dont dream
i reach for the stars
bedside

i dont need to hear yr love
i can only imagaine
how it scalds
i try to get over the madness
and i burn like the sun
everytime i see yr face
i need a second,
breathe if it makes u happy
sing if u dont understand
even if it hurts
one day youll feel whole again

this night was like the next, a new feeling and new emotions change the veener of the shine.
whn i wake up, ill feel different. whn i leave for the city i can surely pretend that something will happen, like new; which is old and an oxymoron. when i die, it will probally be from an explosion of emotions and a heart renching call that turns my face towards infinity. i feel, happy.

Sat, Feb. 28th, 2009, 12:21 am

i was socially inept and emotionally bankrupt
from a sector in my brain
i sent my knife towards you
love tearing a vein
sucker punched and docile
yr coming apart in my arms
eyes glazed and buried
the sun, the sea and eternity
if u ever come here again
i wonder wht yll think
squeeze those pressed lips riping good and vicious

Tue, Feb. 10th, 2009, 10:06 pm

i have decifered the pain
that cracks from wear and rain
i creep in the night
devils tear at my skin,
nothing means nothing
i am a slow pulsating vein
with a message of crime
tear the maggots off me
call off the dogs i have fed for years
just because it hurts
just because there is pain
i tasted the honey
made from sugar cane
she feeds me
the mother

the pores swallow you whole
the madness crawls through
everything i forgot, i knew
they took their machetes
and cut me down
they sang the songs
my mama once sang

i dont know where you come from
exactly
but i have a funny feeling
you felt that too

ergo.
hersay
etc.
i dont believe in hell
took me 29 years
to escape that place
i dont believe in angels
but i can hear their songs
i dont believe in heaven
or the eternity i feel

la luz
la paz
el cielo
sabras!

Fri, Mar. 14th, 2008, 12:46 am
magic is something that squeezes the life out of me

i cringe at the gesture
absorb the blow
i am stuck in an airport
sleeping, talking
talking, sleeping
whiskey
turn the trance on again
dilute the viens
bury the violence
my heart bangs out a beat
i am somewhere
take the crucifix to my lips
i am still new to this.

i am horny
sweat, dirt, detached
i lay on my back
and let the light irrate my eyes
a swift glance
and then another
i know.
you know.
can i commit to meeting you in person
my imagination runs all over the spectrum of possibilities
i feel
thats the end of it all

Sun, Jan. 6th, 2008, 12:01 am

she covers the stars with marigolds
she tears a bit of me off
stranded, belonging to her whim
the sky it parts
the lightning carves out the night
i need to eat some more
this mood is coarse
she lied, though i wasnt sure
i pick up a dandolion
and make many wishes
i feel tortured
the kiss of pain
marks its territory
i wake and sleep
to an empty promise

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